I went to the hospital on the 15th of this month because of back pain. It turns out that my pain was caused my a mass in my right lung that was pressing against my spinal column. It is a Small Cell Cancer and has an 80% success rate with Chemo. I started treatments Sunday and was released from the hospital today. The rest of the treatments will be done on an outpatient basis.

I'm doing pretty well. Probably better than Billy. He has been really worried and scared. I think trying to comfort him kept me from falling apart. And he has been right there for me all week. Even at 2 am when I called him in the middle of a panic attack. He was at the hospital so fast, I half expected him to carry the phone in with him. He sat with me until I settled down and went to sleep.

Wonder how I am going to look in a turban? They say I will lose my hair. And here is the really wierd part of that. The nurses say that when it grows back, it may well be a completely different color and texture than what it is now. So, who knows what I am going to look like next?

I will walk through this. Safely. And in Health and Peace.

Namaste

Hugs hugs and more hugs dear Susan! XOXOXO

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Originally posted by dear losgann:
...80% success rate with Chemo...

I suppose that is good news. The fact you found it and will be treated is good news as well, if you hadn't noticed and checked... and thanks for sharing!

Do you get to program what color and texture you want? Blondie? Redhead? hey, I don't even know what color you are! Turban, this is funny. I can see some guy at an airport: No I am not arab, recovering from Chemo! rriiiiight!!

Sending you, Billy and all positive vibes, healing energy, love and prayers. May your bout with this Small Cell Cancer go quickly, painlessly and easily. May compassion and awareness surround you and the medical people assisting you. And so it is. Seeing you healthy and happy.

Love and light being, Teo Do (Re, Mi, Far...)

Dear Susan,

My healing prayers are with you. I am glad that you caught the problem in time. The sooner you get treatment the more successful the outcome.

The angels are surrounding you with gentle healing light.

Love, Inda

Teo, I love it!!!!!! No, I don't think I get to choose the color and texture. Wouldn't that be cool!

What color am I? Isn't everyone some shade of brown? lol I am very light skinned but tan easily. My hair was originally such a dark brown that most people thought it was black. However, I come from a family that turns grey very early in life so, for now at least, I have white hair. And almost no wrinkles so people get really confused when they try to judge my age. 50 on September 6. Mostly, I am just a little Irish girl with a touch of Native American and who knows what else thrown in.

You know, that laugh was just what I needed. You wouldn't believe the wacky hairstyles and colors that I thought of. Complete with stars and stuff. Hey! Maybe i will get me a clown wig! Wouldn't that be fun?

I started a topic on Chopra. Random Thoughts in Off Topic. Just a place where I can spout off while I go through this. Sort of work my way through all the thoughts swirling around up there. Stop by and see how nuts this has REALLY made me! lol Like I had that far to go.

Dear Susan,

You are surrounded by powerful healing energy.
All will be well.
Maybe the hair will grow back in its original color,
wouldn't that confuse people even more

My prayers surround you.

Love,
yoko

Dear Susan, again be assured that you are in my prayers. Your positive attitude will make up for the remaining 20% of success rate!
Remember to align every day to the Source of Divine perfection, which will allow the healing energy to permeate all your cells.
You are a brave and young grandmother ... almost no wrinkles! That's great! You may look at this critical moment as a moment of renewal with final surprise of the hair color!
When you experience momentaneous anxiety remember that God is constantly with you, with every breath inhale His love and exhale your worries, deeply feeling His divine healing embrace.
Sending you and Bill much love.
Trust!
Big hugs.
Margherita

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Originally posted by dear losgann:
Just a place where I can spout off while I go through this. Sort of work my way through all the thoughts swirl...

I consider it excellent free therepy!

Making people listen to... oh! I mean... Sharing... with everyone.. right!

A good laugh is great therepy too!!!

Truly, I really believe this. If we can communicate with compassionate friends, at this point we are the angels, those sent to divinely help and heal us. I believe this fully. Anyway, feel free to "let it all out" here, there, wherever the spirit moves you to.

Look at all the angels replying to you here! It is so heartwarming, aaahhh.. look at the love!

Mmmmm.... there IS no place like Om.. he he..

Love and light being, Teo Do (Re, Me, Far, Soul...)

Dear Susan,
I am very sorry to hear that you are not well, but I am glad that you caught it in time.
Sending you healing prayers for a quick and complete recovery.

Love,
Sue

Good Morning, Everybody! It is absolutely beeeaayouuuuuteeeful here today. Thunderstorms last night have the air sparkling this morning. I could have walked around the building twice this morning. Decided to conserve the energy for all the errands I have to do today.



Hey! I just found a picture of me when the chemo hot flashes hit! Quick! Pour some icewater on me! When one of those babies flare up, losing my hair sounds like a goooooood thing!

Love you all lots

Dear Susan,
Sending you healing prayers.
Everything will work out well. It will be interesting to see what the hair color will be when it grows back, may it be what you always wanted.
Keep positive thoughts and don't lose your wonderful sense of humor.

Love
Vicky

Dear Susan,

Like Vicky, I love your sense of humour. Keep it up.

Sending you infinite positive healing energy. May the treatment be quick and easy. Seeing you in perfect health.

Love, Inda

quote: Originally posted by dear losgann: Good Morning, Everybody! It is absolutely beeeaayouuuuuteeeful here today.... Your good mood is contagous, and I don't mind catching it from you! Such beautiful and caring replies... mmm... love to you all too! So uhm, Susan, the picture Vicky put is you, huh? he he..

Love and *L*I*G*H*T**B*E*I*N*G*, Teo Do (Re, Mi, Fa, Soul....)

Dear Susan,
Sorry to hear that you are sick. Sending you much healing energy for a quick and complete recovery from Small Cell cancer.

Sending prayers.

Love,
Gisele

Dear Susan,

Adding many more healing prayers for you.
The angels will light candles for you, and each candle light will send you energy for a perfect recovery.

Love
Vicky

Dear Susan,

Adding more candles to the ones Vicky posted to surround you with more healing light and to brighten up your days.

Love, Inda

Ahhhh.......I needed those candles today. I got all overconfident and let my lortab prescription run out before the back pain had run out. Dumbdumbdumbdumb......so I am hurting pretty bad tonight. Doesn't kill my sense of humor, but it doesn't really help it either. And to make matters worse, this is Shawna and Cole's last day here. So I held him more today. Double ouch! He's a big boy! It's okay, I wouldn't give up one moment of holding him today. The pain is only temporary. I'll remember holding my grandson when he is big enough to carry me around.

Dear Susan,

Praying for the pain to go away. Sending you more healing light.

Love
Vicky

Dear Susan,
Adding mor healing prayers for you ,to the ones already posted on Givnology.
Sending angels to keep the ligts burning.

Love,
Sue

Sending you many more healing prayers dear Susan.
May the light keep on shining.

Love, Inda

Thank you. All those candle must have lit up a dark corner of my brain. Heat wasn't helping enough on my back, so last night I asked Billy to hold an icepack on it. And it worked! Lasted for hours. My arms and legs were still achy but I can sleep through that. It's only the back that gets sharp enough to keep me awake. So your prayers had a very immediate effect.

I want you all to know I come on here and read several times a day. The chemo keeps me rather fatigued and I tend to come on a read just before I lie down, so I'm often too tired to reply. But your prayers are with me as I rest.